Searching for a Purpose Again

I recently walked away from an antiwar group not because I stopped believing in the cause but because I didn't like the way that things were being run and all the hidden agendas. Walking away from the group didn't bother me at first and felt like it was the best decision I’ve made this past semester but now I can't help but feel some sort of emptiness inside...like I lost my purpose in life. I still don’t want to be part of that group with things being run the way that they have been but I do regret not sticking around and fighting to change things. I feel like I should still be doing something to help raise awareness about the wars and injustices that are going on today; especially in Palestine and Israel. I am fed up with people always trying to pin point the guilty party while innocent people are dying rather than trying to find a solution to end the atrocities. I am, according to the school, the president of the antiwar group and after I, and a group of people, walked away from the group, the group dismantled but is still recognized by the school as a legitimate student group. This got me thinking what if I change the name of the group next semester, bring in new members and turn it into a group that covers all the issues that we care about. We need new ways in which we can still talk about issues that we care about but instead of attempting to enforce our own views, we need to have debates and discussions with different opinions and perspectives present at the same time, in which the audience can get what they want out of it. This group should tackle different issues from devastating effects of war, to global warming, to the corporate world, to eating healthy and exercising. I want to watch movies that will educate us about different cultures, different lifestyles, and different historic events that can teach us valuable lessons, different atrocities that are going on around us…I want to learn about and tackle everything that humans have an affect on and that is within our hands to change. Maybe we’ll call it “Social Conscience” or “The Road to Social Conscience” or “Starting at Home Base” (The last one basically means that if one has the desire to change the world and make it better, then one must first begin by changing and improving themselves).