Until it is clearly stated, it doesn’t exist

I said before that I am going to start taking things at face value. No more overanalyzing things that occur in my life. However, I can’t help but notice the way he looks at me and I can’t help but speculate what it means. I’ve told him before I want nothing more than just friendship and he said he wants the same…and I know what you are thinking but it wasn’t one of those moments where he tried to save his pride and said that he wanted what I wanted so that it doesn’t seem like he got rejected...or at least I don't think that it was one of those moments...It felt sincere to me, the way that he said it made me believe that he wants nothing more than friendship. And although I want to take things at face value and stop overanalyzing things, I can’t help but think about this look. Things were cool between us and I like them the way they were; but yesterday he started looking at me differently; it just doesn’t feel like a friendship kind of look and I am not sure if it is the ‘I want more’ kinda look…I just don’t know what to make of it. Oh well, I guess it doesn’t really matter, whatever that look means it's not going to change anything from my end, so I am putting this thought to an end: it doesn’t matter what that look means, what matters is that if that look is hiding feelings beneath it then he needs to explain that to me or else I will not worry about it.

I will not worry about what is going on in the other persons' heads…If if feel something is different; I am still going to be myself and instead of avoiding that person when I start feeling like they might have real feelings for me (which is what I usually do), I am going to keep things the way they are and if that person wants more then it is his responsibility to talk to me about it even if that person is upset/bothered by me then it is also their responsibility to explain that to me and in return I will be completely honest. But by doing what I always do - which is avoiding someone when I start feeling like there is something different from their end fearing that whatever it is it might escalate - I am putting myself through a series of never-ending thoughts and I will not do that anymore.

From now on – Until it is clearly stated, it doesn’t exist – that is my policy!